I realized today that I really have to stop worrying about what others think. What do I mean you ask? I live alone. I eat dinner at a tv tray and have a large dining room table that sits empty. This table allows me the space I need to create; my drafting table is just too small.
I became ashamed after a friend made comments about my arts and crafts taking over. I really felt bad and moved all of my thing from the table. It looks very pretty, but, it is begging to be used. I can hear it calling me, "use me to make cards, use me to make books, my molecules miss you."
It was then I realized that I put too much stock in what others think. I stopped knitting and crocheting for over 10 years because my husband thought it was a waste of time. How sad. I stopped making cards because I convinced myself that the work wasn't good enough. I stopped going within because I thought nothing was there. How sad.
This is the funny part. My husband died in January of 2001. I was sitting the basement one Saturday morning in October and the thought hit me "Hey....there is no one to complain about me knitting..." I turned off the TV went to the yarn shop and bought yarn and needles and have been knitting and crocheting ever since. I have made some of the best gifts.....
I am in the process of putting my art supplies back on the table. My cutting mat is in place. I have the most beautiful plant in the middle of the table and it will stay there.....it brings life to the creations. Oh I feel so happy to be able to look at my table and see the things that make my heart sing. I have made thank you cards, completed ATC for the Wild Card Swap and have startd backgrounds for the June Swap. Gosh am I happy.
So, I am going to use the rest of my life perfecting my way of doing things.....should prove to be very interesting,
until next time......