|Mendenhall Glacier, Alaska|
I have been having a blast. I just have to say it again, I have been having a blast. During the Month of April I took an online ecourse, Expressions, taught and presented by Regina Lord of Creative Kismet. Regina is an excellent teacher and artist. She takes care to present the process of drawing, shading and painting faces in a step by step manner. Before this class I was pretty much a stick person artist.
Now, I have to be honest. When I was much younger, I would spend hours in my room drawing. I could look at a picture and copy the essence of that picture. I illustrated all of my reports while in grade school and high school. In fact I did a little bit of everything, drawing, coloring, writing poetry, fiction and creative non-fiction. I taught myself to knit when I was 18 and made a layette set for my son when he was born. It was quite stunning with one problem...he was born Aug. 30, 1968 so it was too hot for him to wear the sweater, hat and booties. I was so disappointed. My self education did not include using the right weight of yarn for the season. Oh well, live and learn.
Somewhere in my twenties, while juggling a stressful marriage, work, motherhood and stops and starts with my college education, I lost a large part of myself. The creative part. No that is not true, the creative part did not go away, the confidence that I could do anything I put my mind to was lost. Set backs and failures can do that sometimes. We talk about the inner critic and how it works a lot. My concern is where it came from in the first place. I read one book that said give the inner critic a name. Mine is Gertrude. Another book says, tell her to go away....she seemed to like her home and was really reluctant to leave. Nothing I read really put me on the road to finding where Gertrude came from in the first place. Hmmm I thought, if I am going to have any peace, I have to do more digging.
Fast forward through 40 years or more (whew, I am getting more mature). During that 40 year period I have been busy. I have made greeting cards which I love, but not confident enough to market them (much to the chagrin of many friends). I have attended Art Retreats and had a blast. I have signed up for online classes and chickened out from completing them (Gertrude was really busy during this time). Oh I knitted some fabulous scarves, gave them away as presents; I made some fabulous cards; bought a boat load of art supplies, took fabulous pictures, yada, yada, yada......
So why am I now having a blast in 2013? Because I have allowed myself to have fun. Yep, good old fashioned fun. Each new challenge I have tried. Sometimes I have to talk myself into it, but I do it. There are a couple of projects that I have to continue the you can do it discussion so I will try them, but for the most part, I have stretched myself. No more stick figures for me. I laugh a lot as I draw faces, try zentangling, make colorful paper (my favorite things to do) and actually wear a vest that I made 5 years ago (the badboy looked good on me).
Ah life, I am having a blast. If you look at recent blog entries, they are pictures of practice drawings and I am proud of everyone of them. In fact, I am just giddy with joy. I am so glad I finally gave myself permission to let the creativity that has been laying dormant for so long to finally wake up. It is bursting forth and I am just having plain ole fun.
The picture above was taken in 2010 on an Alaskan Cruise. It is an awesome photo and I love it. Someday I am going to paint it.
As I said, I am having a blast.