|Painting done in FW Acrylic demo class|
Sometimes I take myself and the things I do too seriously. I want it to be perfect. I want everyone to love it. I want everyone to love me.....well that is not always going to happen. Not because I am not lovable or because what I do is not any good, but because that is just life. This is hard to accept because the message we receive throughout our lives is to be your best, be on top and if you are everyone will love it. Boy have I learned that this way of thinking is just not realistic.
It took me a long time to learn this, through much heart break and disappointment. When I first started writing my blog in 2006 no one read it. I would email friends and let them know about it and not a peep, so I gave up. I did not write for 3 years until I believe 2009, still minimal responses. Truly it was not until May of this year that I started blogging on a somewhat regular basis. I was challenging myself to draw something everyday and post it. It did not matter if I got a comment or not (of course it helps to get some), I just had to do the work, post the item, and have fun doing it.
Now don't get me wrong, I want people to look at my blog and comment, even a brief Hi. I still get excited when I check and find a comment. But, the one thing I try to do, if I am looking at a picture on Facebook, is make a comment; or If I read a blog I try to leave a comment to say Hi. Do I always, no but I promise myself to do better.
Wow, light bulb moment.....it is like walking into someone's house and not saying hello. Hey this is interesting. I am really going to live this now. This means that I have to live my own truth and be more responsive when I visit blogs and enter your space; when I look at your artwork on Facebook or Tumblr or Twitter; or when I get an email; I have to respond, say Hello and wish you well.
I like this blog-a-long. It is making me think, making me do some soul searching and remembering to be humble. So dear reader, as you visit me today I greet you with a Warm Hello and Welcome come on in, Sit a Spell and have a good time.
Your Friend, Pilgrim