The picture above is a close up of a portion of the wall of the Duomo in Orvieto, Italy. I was attracted to it by the pattern. It is both intricate and simple at the same time. In my life I have noticed certain patterns that are also intricate and simple at the same time.
For example for the past 6 weeks I was on vacation. 5 weeks at my daughters house and 6 days in Chicago. I ate very sensibly during that time period and lost 8 pounds. I am on a quest to lose weight in a sensible manner. Been home since Monday the 12th and I started slowly creeping back into old patters of behavior. Eating what I know is not good for me. WELL, let me tell you my tummy rebelled this morning. It told me NO MORE. "I will not accept items too high in sodium, I WILL NOT accept processed meats. No, No, No, it you don't have the sense to understand this, then I will SHOW you." And I spent an hour losing everything but my kidneys (at least it seemed like it). I got the message, time to change my pattern of eating for good. No more processed meats, drink much more water, eat my fruit and veggies.
I have to make my goal for good-self care more than just "empty words". I have to change the pattern that says I am not worthy, that self care is something others do. It is for me too. Starting with little steps and moving on to bigger ones. I have to make the patterns of my life beautiful and much less complicated. No matter how many times I have to start over to get it right, I just have to take a deep breath and carry on.
As I sit here sipping ginger ale to settle my stomach, I understand just how important it is to make friends with my Tummy. Sorry Tummy, please forgive me, I promise to treat you better.
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Self care is a process that takes time to make a habit. Or so I tell myself. I will work on it and you work on it :)
Thanks so much Shirley for the encouragement.
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