I was thinking about the online classes I am participating in and how I really try to look at each picture and give encouragement because it is so very important to support fellow artists. I realize when I look at the work of others mine is not as compelling, but, at least I am trying, working, creating......and that is so important. I was feeling a little down because I do not get a lot comments until I examined my intent for doing this and posting. See, comparing myself to others is so dangerous. So why am I posting on line; to gain courage and confidence. I am posting to overcome vulnerability. I am posting for me, just because I can.
So I have to put in writing a reminder to myself that I am not posting for praise of others and that if I get just one comment, it is a good thing because I am sharing my talents with the universe. You know, all of this is really therapy since I have spent so much of my life trying to please others and neglecting me. I did not even know who I was. Through art I am discovering so many dimensions of myself through colors, images, faces, flowers, quirky birds, life. The joy of this discovery is phenomenal. But I cannot allow myself to get distracted by my own insecurities. I have go get out of my own way and not sabotage myself with false needs. This is an important lesson for all parts of my life...Amen.
Until next time....Pilgrim.
5 comments:
this is a BEAUTIFUL post, Glenda, so full of truth and honesty! I am glad you are articulating what you are doing and WHO you are doing it for - YOURSELF!! The last lines are so inspiring:
"But I cannot allow myself to get distracted by my own insecurities. I have to go get out of my own way and not sabotage myself with false needs."
It's clear that you are learning a lot from the artful journey you have embarked on, and it will continue to unveil many more enriching lessons, so keep traveling, Pilgrim!
Thanks Monica I feel Ike we are true kindred spirits.
I completely relate to what you are saying here. I often feel the same way when I compare my work to others in the same classes. I think we all feel like this. Just keep working from your heart and soul... that's when the artwork is honest and true.
Jessica it is such an honor for you to visit my blog, thank you do much.
Actually, Glenda, I didn't even know you had a blog before today! I may have forgotten, because I think I remember the phrase 'musings of a pilgrim'.
The blog world keeps changing. People comment less and less. I constantly am surprised that I get page views in the double digits, but almost no comments. I think people are hesitant to speak.
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